I was thinking about so many things. I am doing a lot of things. And it has been a long time since I have written something. It feels sad that at this moment in my life, I find it hard to sit down, to think, to reflect and to write. Life has been a constant movement and distractions are everywhere. Sometimes, I find myself browsing the internet endlessly, not really knowing what Im looking for. Maybe, I just need something to occupy my mind, to forget that constant itch, that constant feeling of discontent.
I always tell you not to be bored, because you are still young, and there’s so much to do...so much to explore and so many dreams to pursue. Boredom is for those people who never pursued a dream, those people who fell into the daily routine of life...just doing the same things over and over and over again.
And sometimes, I feel that way. Because, you see, I never had the opportunity to pursue my dreams. I had to work to support myself and my family. I never had the chance to harness my talents. I had to forget my passion because I was born in an era wherein art is for the rich and there is no enough platform to showcase what I have.
And maybe, I was also scared...to fail, to go hungry, to beg. I was scared to be vulnerable, to be criticized on something that I love doing.
Oftentimes, I ask you what you want to be when you grow up, and many times your answer varies, from a construction worker/builder to pilot and chef. I know its too early to ask, and maybe when you’re older you’ll know what you really want. I ask that because as early as now, I want you to be aware of what you want, I want you to notice what interests you, I want you to find your passion, that something that you would want to do even late at night, that you’ll forget to eat just to finish it, that something that will motivate you to wake up each morning feeling inspired.
Life is hard enough as it is. Work is hard. But if you choose doing what you love, the hardship will be worth it.
Know that I will always be here to support you, to help you to cheer you and to be proud of you.
Love,
Mom
