Dear Max,
Today you made mommy so proud and happy...
- You cupped mommy's face and kissed me in the lips without being asked to. You don't usually kiss me, even if I ask you to. You usually like to kiss daddy. But today, you just kissed me.
- You said "mom, mom, momma, momma" again and again...its your first time to address me as mom.
- you stayed beside mommy and gently pat mommy's arm, while you listen and observe.
- You never left mommy's side...even in your sleep, you tried to find mommy's arm and embrace it.
Maybe you do understand more than we can imagine. Maybe you know mommy more than I know and understand you. Maybe you just know...that today is a sad sad day for mommy, that there are decisions to be made, that we will be affected, especially you...and mommy cried the whole night.
Maybe its too much to ask that you understand where I'm coming from, so I won't. Maybe you wont forgive me. But I'll still say I'm sorry because I do. Because I feel so sad about all these.
Im so sorry luvs. Try to grow up to be a good boy. Mommy will be very happy to see you making your own choices and taking responsibility over your actions.
I love you so much.
~mommy
