Dear Max,
Nabangga si mommy nung Tuesday...nagmamadali kasi ako makauwi. Pero hindi kasalanan ni mommy ( actually, anak, lahat naman ng nababangga sinasabi nila na hindi nila kasalanan kya masanay ka na! Hehe), may pinagbigyan kasi akong gustong sumingit sa harap ko, at hinintay ko talaga syang kumanan dahil ayaw kong makipag gitgitan, ayun, bigla ko na lang naramdaman na may bumangga sa likod ko...hindi raw ako nakita nung jeep...( naliliitan ka ba sa kin?!)
Medyo nalungkot si mommy. Hindi ko rin maipaliwanag kung bakit. Siguro dala na rin ng pagod ko at stress sa trabaho.
Nagsick leave ako kinabukasan, sumakit kasi yung mga muscles ko sa likod at leeg, kya nman whole day tayong nagplay-play. Hindi ka talaga natulog ng hapon, sinulit mo ang pagkakasakit ko, nagtulungan tyo buong araw...habang sinasabog mo yung mga gamit, nililigpit naman ni mommy! Bagay tayo di ba? We complement each other! Hehe! Dahil dito, hindi na ko ulit magsisick leave! Wahhhh!
Pumasok na ko ulet ngayon, may training kasi kami sa office kaya kailangan kong pumasok. May mga bali-balitang may namatay na dalawang medreps daw...nabangga sila ng bus habang naghahatid ng doktor. Kinilabutan ako...hay, buti na lang jeep lang bumangga sa kin at hindi total wreck ang kotse ko at higit sa lahat nakauwi pa rin ako sayo...
Sana someday, mabigyan din ako ng chance na mabago ang mga bagay-bagay na gusto kong baguhin. Sana magawa ko rin ang mga bagay-bagay na gusto kong gawin...
Nabasa ko to kanina lang, parang na-touch yung puso ko, malay mo, someday, paglaki mo, ma-touch ka rin nito...
Give us this day, Lord, our daily miracle.
Even if we are incapable of noticing it because our mind is focussed on great deeds and conquests. Even if we are too preoccupied with day-to-day life to know that our path was changed by it.
And when we are sad, help us to keep our eyes open to the life around us: a flower opening, the stars in the sky, the distant singing of a bird or a child’s voice nearby.
Help us to understand that there are certain things so important that we have to discover them without anyone’s help. And that we should not feel alone and helpless, because You are there with us, ready to intervene if our feet go perilously close to the abyss.
Help us to continue onward despite the fear and to accept the inexplicable despite our need to explain and know everything.
Help us to understand that Love’s strength lies in its contradictions and that Love lasts because it changes and not because it stays the same and never faces any challenges.
And to understand, too, that each time we see the humble exalted and the arrogant humbled, we are witnessing a miracle.
Help us to know that when our legs are tired, we can keep walking thanks to the strength in our hearts, and that when our hearts are tired, we can still carry on thanks to the strength of our Faith.
~taken from MANUSCRIPT FOUND IN ACCRA ( Paulo Coelho )
Habang natutulog ka ngayon sa tabi ko (nagtimpla na ko ng dede mo para hindi ko na kailangan tumayo pag nagising ka), alam ko na kahit gaano pa kahirap ang mga bagay-bagay, or kahit gaano pa ang lungkot na maramdaman ko, pag naisip kita, pag nakita ko yung smile mo, pag niyakap mo ko...somehow, everything is much lighter... much bearable and much much brighter.
And yes, I thank God that you are here with us.
Love you mimi.
~mommy
